1st Journal... what to write?

Survived? Ha! I'm rather dissapointed at how horribly I'm doing. I mean I really want to learn, but some of the stuff I just don't get! I mean I think that physics is sooooo cool and that it can be really interesting, but I think my own ineptitude is holding back my drive to learn. I know you have to learn about the small stuff to get to learn the big stuff, but I worked hard to get here! I could have easily not worked hard and went to an easier class, but I wanted to learn physics in the future and so I worked my butt off to get here. I know I didn't do so good... BUT I WILL DO BETTER!!!!! That's a Promise to Myself!